Last night I was at Jives Coffee Shop in Old Colorado City (I go there every Wednesday) thinking it was going to be the same as every week (I go outside, come inside around 7:30 or so, then I perform whatever few songs I've prepared). But no. Instead, as soon as my friend, Zoe and I go up to perform Radioactive by Imagine Dragons, my Mom's friend Kaykay has a seizure and stops breathing. Luckily when the paramedics came they got her breathing again.
Zoe and I perform then go outside and see her husband and a few other people sitting with her, most likely telling her everything's going to be ok. Then I hear sirens. I prayed that they were/weren't coming over to her, then I see the lights come around the corner, the paramedics are here. I start to cry and pray even harder that everything's going to be ok.
After awhile an ambulance comes around the corner. By then I've calmed down, but I start crying again because I'm really worried. Then I see her moving, I'm thankful but still scared. The paramedics get her into the back of the ambulance and they go.
I'm still scared today because I don't know what's going on. And everyone's telling me it's going to be ok. (sorry to be rude but) You don't know it's going to be ok! So stop saying that! Just say "I hope everything will be alright." and go on with your day. Please...
Thank you for reading this. I really wish that whoever would like to will pray for Kaykay and that she's ok.
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ReplyDeleteWow, Julia, what an experience! What I like about your story is that you try and give some advice to those who, (you are right) don't know what to say and so then say the wrong thing. Anyway, thank you so much for sharing this story, and capturing the moment with words.
ReplyDeleteOH, and btw, I hope everything will be alright. :)
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ReplyDeletePeople who say it's going to be alright may think they are trying to help you feel better, but perhaps (unconsciously) they are attempting to calm themselves because THEY are scared and can't admit it. It's a real life skill to be present and to have integrity while a loved one (or a stranger) is suffering. That means not attempting to fix feelings--one's own or others'. Way to trust your feelings and insights.
ReplyDeleteOne of our biggest lessons in life is to be in the unknowing. . We don't know if it will ever be ok or not, and yet we must hope, trust, love and live anyway. I know it was scarey. Sometimes these moments,stay with us a lifetime. Time will give some perspective, but you'll always remember feeling helpless ......could you do anything differently next time? Probably not...thanks for sharing
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ReplyDeleteShe is ok, turns out that she had the seizure because of all the sound checks and all of the noise that was going on around. I saw her at jives and thought to myself "Thank lord she's alright"
ReplyDelete-Julia
She is ok, turns out that she had the seizure because of all the sound checks and all of the noise that was going on around. I saw her at jives and thought to myself "Thank lord she's alright"
ReplyDelete-Julia